i still remember the park where i used to go in summer vacation.though i ws never much interested in playing der it was just being with my baba[after he cud get time from his hectic schedules] tht mattered to me...i never missed opportunity to accompany him in office wen i cud..morning walks with him in exotic campus of RBI on university road..collecting flowers on d way..thank god i didnt have busy childhood like today's children with so many classes,school activities.childhood is only time wen we do crazy meaningless activities...n tht shudn't be wasted on goal directed activities.
i used to meet many IAS officers in baba's office n even used to chat with dem though i never knew wat it means.. ignorance is bliss.used to go on airport with dem..its amusing to see airplane in childhood.nothing really amuses me these days,except ultra nice ppl..is it downgradin of my life? i had read somewhere life should be as if ethn is miracle or as nthng is miracle.im living it as later half n it's distressing sometimes..
visiting baba's office today initiated series of thoughts in my brain.i often wonder whether i live in my own world always n unaware of world around me..n wen im awaken in bet i feel amused by ppl in it n where de r leading.
der always comes a point in our life wen we choose different path or forced to lead different way...der were ppl with u wen u started different journey n sometime u come across these ppl again n u find dem in completely different world,world u never know existed...n i cant make out whether i've changed alot or these ppl..there r no ifs n buts but if u try to apply this in ur future life i wonder where i'll be if i choose certain path.i look at baba's friends n i get confused.de chose odr ways n reached some different point in der life,de ignored some principles n became part of the flow,got drifted with the flow...may be my parents chose different way,not with the flow..
it's amusing where life leads u..tht's where confusion arises whether u shud take life in ur hand n lead it hte way u want,even if it means more harder way n uncertainty n being 'on th edge ' al the time..it's risky but its addicting taking risks al time goin always against the flow..to the point it's difficult to be in comfort zone even for some time.it feels disastrous..but i think tht's the way i wanna lead my life.somehow it makes ma life look like miracle to myself:)
meeting different ppl makes me only aware of my own consciousness always. may be i'm in my world but i retain the capability of looking at ppl for wat de r rather than being blinded in my own brain...
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